I come home at the middle of the night, pictures of you all over my mind, I can't help it but cry. And yes, I'm not afraid of cry once in a while, it means I have feelings. but it also means you hurt me, like always.
What can I do? It's 2:05 am and I keep asking this question. But my options aren't too many like I wish they were. Some might hurt and some might give me strength to move on. I laugh at this thought.
Move on? C'mmon. Even if I wanted to, we both know I can't. But it's all your fault,you came into my life and made yourself essential and necessary. Now everytime I wake up you are here with me, in my head but you are. That's
good normal,isn't it?
Yeah,sure. I run to my bedroom, my mother not even noticing me, my cheeks bright red, I throw myself at the bed, crying and screaming at my pillow. My only friend recently. The one I know will never tell a soul about me. The one who won't say how many times I cried, how many times I think about you.
"Please,go away" I say.
"Melody, please just listen to me. Babe,you know how I feel about you" His angelic voice sounds in my bedroom. I laugh against the pillow. Please, I'm not that stupid to believe that.
"Where is she? I thought she would be hanging on your arm all the time" My eyes describe all the angry,sadness,jealousy and even some of desire.
Fuck myself. I fell in love.
And I fell hard.
I feel a body lay next to me,an arm wraps around me. I move but there he goes again,whispering in my ear "Mel,please. Don't be like that. We were just messing around...
I love you"
My Biggest Weakness.